I wonder how many times we'll say goodbye before we actually let go?

I tried, to be your friend, i did, but im just not going to put myself through it anymore. All you do is say things to hurt me, and accuse me of things that i haven't done, and try and make me feel like shit. You walked into my life almost a year ago then, and since then, all you've done is fuck me over. In some ways, you are the worst thing that ever happened to me, because you broke my down so much, and you were the shittest person i have ever known, but on the other hand, you were the best thing, because you made me strong, and when you left it made me change as a person. Karma's a bitch though, you'll get it. i promsie you that. And ive blocked your msn and im not going to reply to your texts anymore. I really thought we could make things work as friends, but im not going to put in all the effort. I'll always be here for you if you call me at 3am, but other than that i dont want you in my life. And it just makes me laugh, because yes i ALMOST cheated on you, and no im not proud, but you were just a shit person, so you can think im at fault for our relationship ending, but thats not really the case. And for the last time, no i did not steal your condoms and i pod charger. your a pathetic, low person, and im jsut happy to be away from you.
and im excited now because im getting over you, and im looking forward to meeting someone new and having a happy future with them. and im strong now. It may bother me when i see you with other girls, but thats not because i want you back. No, its because i dont want you to be happy, not after everything you put me through. Im finally over you, so here's to your future. have a good one stranger.

and i could cry with relif right now, because i know that the worst is over now. i dotn cry anymore, and im not sad, sure theres still the occasional pang when i smell lynx africa, or when i walk past your house, but thats all it is, a memory, just a story thats happened and isnt relevent anymore. So thankyou for the good times, for the laughs, and for holding me when i was scared, and for always helping me through. We were young and in love and we fucked up okay, and in a couple of years im going to look back and laugh at how trivial this all is. Im looking forward to this summer, because so far it has been the best of my life, and as for my panic attakcs? yehh im fighting through them, as always, and this time im doing it by myself. So you can leave me alone now, because im fianlly over you. and im done with all of your shit. your not using me for sex anymore, and your not gonna make me cry ever again.. all i can say is, good luck to the next girl.

But just know that i will never ever forget you.

xx