(8) living my life at 100 miles an hour

Letting go isn't about winning or losing,
it's not about pride
its not about obsessing or dwelling on the past
it isnt about loss and its not about defeat
to let go is to cherish memories but to overcome them and to move on
letting go is accepting
letting go is having the courage to accept change

Im going to admit, a while back, i was not a nice person, and i did some horrible things that i am ashamed of, and i wish i could take them back but i can't. The only thing i can do is to learn from my mistakes. And everyone says that people can't change, but thats not true, because the day that andy left, i changed for good, and for a really long time, i thought i was sad because i had lost him, but thats nto actually the reason i was unhappy. i was sad because all the time i was with him, i gave him everything, so when he left, i lost a little but of myself aswell. But ever since then, ive just got out there, and had fun and laughed. ive been out every night, and ive made new friends, and ive been having the time of my life, and im starting to realise that im going to be just fine on my own :) so yes, maybe i was a horrible person, but that was only because of the horrible relationship i was in, and trust me, im happier now than ive been for a long time :)

You change for one or two reasons,
you learn enough to want to,
or you've been hurt enough to have to.

xxx