whats the rush?

I am growing up, and i am changing and it's scary. In a week i have to start at a new school.. again. except this time its different. because this time, im not going to fall for anyone, im not going to get involved, im just going to pass my exams. thats it, thats what i will be happy with. Just that. And last year, it really bothered me that i didnt seem to fit in at heles, and how uncomfortable i felt in my skin, but this year, i dont care if that happens at ridgeway, because i have my friends, i have the best friends in the world and thats where i belong, they changed my life. and i was thnking the other day how everything really does happen for a reason. and if i could go back in time, and choose whether or not to cheat on andy, i would still do it every single time, in fact, i would probably have done worse, just so he would of broken up with me sooner, and even if it meant having andy back in my life, and having things stay the same, i would still do it, because despite all the pain and the heartbreak, i am a stronger person, and i would not change one thing about my life right now.


xxx