My life (L)

So three months ago now, i fell to pieces. I was barley breathing and i just couldn't see the point in anything anymore. I lost andy, and that meant that i lost not only my boyfriend, but my best friend, my world, my past, my future, and also a little piece of me too. And i can honestly say that losing him was the worst thing i have ever gone through. God.. you have no idea how much it hurt. No-one will ever know how much i cried, or how much it broke me inside. But everyone says that things happen for a reason, and those people are right. Because if andy hadn't of left, i would not of had the best summer of my life. And most importantly, i would not of met the people i did. People whom im so grateful for, and who i know will be in my life forever. Sam, the nicest boy i have ever met. He picks me up from town at stupid hours of the morning when im crying my eyes out, and he takes me out, and is always there to talk to and have fun with. And Nath, the funniest boy ever, he makes me laugh so much until i cant breath, and Codie.. my beautiful best friend who i can promsie you, will always mean more to me than anyone else that can possibly walk into my life.
And slowley im picking up the pieces and moving on with my life. And im not gonna lie and say it was easy, because it wasnt. It broke my fucking heart and i am never going to be the same again, but it doesnt even matter that i got hurt, because in that happening, i learnt to be a stronger person, and this summer has honenstly been the best summer of my life. Since may 16th, there has not been a single night when i have been alone. And now i know why fate threw all this heartbreak at me, becaus life wanted me to wake up and stop wasting time. And this summer, i have realise that life is terrible as well as wonderful, and loss can stab and overwhelm just as luck can delight and sparkle. I also knew, from the moment that andy left, that life cannot be controlled, and i will never be the same person again. So this is my story of lost innocence. It is about losing someone close and being betrayed by the one you love. Getting it wrong and finding your way back. It is about fighting your demons and valuing your time on the planet. It is about being a grown up, abotu taking this life in both hands and deciding how to spend it. It is to do with feeling lucky and angry and sad and knowing that people are the most irreplaable, heartbreakingly fragule and precious things in life. So bring it on, bring on all the pain and heartbreak you can throw at me, cus i promise you im gonna fight it.

xxx