i love you. (L)

Im okay.
Because im back in a time where bunnies are just cute little animals, and that word means nothing else to me anymore.
when people break up, you tend to spend ages getting over it, but with me, i just shut that certain person out of my life, not because i wanted to, but because i had to.
and its been two months now, and i'll tell you the truth, you did break my heart, so you got what you always wanted, to hurt me. i hope you feel like the bigger person now :)
and ive been thinking about how it was my fault , because of a certain mistake i made, but it wasnt my fault, the truth is, our relationship was breaking down anyways. we fought all the time, and the jelousy and the anger was eating me up.
so yes, i have a lot of bruises, but im hellav happy.
and now, im not just giving up.
im moving on :)
tonight when james calls me, im gonna tell him im ready.
i want to be his girl more than anything in the world.
hes so special to me, and he is living proof that when you let go of the past something better comes along.
hes so kind and understanding, and hes jsut amazing.
and i do get jelous, we both do. but its not the kind of jelousy that eats you up, its more because he means so much to me and im scared to lose him, and i tell him when im jelous, and he holds me so close and strokes my hair and says 'baby, you have nothing to be jelous over. i dont want any other girl' and it just reassures me so much.
he also tells me forever, and i dont know if im ever going to be able to fully believe that, but hey, who knows, it does happen.
some people would say its too soon, and yeah whatever, maybe, but i love james. and i want to be with him for a really,really long time.
this relationship is perfect.
and im not giving up.
i love you babyyy.
always
xxxxxxxxx