Andy Bunney(L)

When you left, i acted like i was really strong, like i didnt care, but the truth is, i did care. You broke my fucking heart, and nothing has ever hurt that bad in my life, i didnt want to tell you that because i didnt want you to know that you hurt me, because then you'd think you had one up on me, but you did hurt me okay.
However, im over it now, and im not sad anymore. I was sad for a really long time though, and there were some days where i jsut didnt wanna get out of bed, but i forced myself to get out there and have fun, and i learnt to appreciate people more closley because no-one sticks around forever.
and i am happy that you left, because im so happy now, ive done some amazing things with my life, and ive gotten close to some amazing people. and you taught me so much, like how to be hoenst, and in my next relationship, im gonna do so good baby i promsie. im always gonna talk about my feelings and never do anythign to get back at them. so i just wanted to say thankyou for teaching me those things, and also thankyou for always being there through everything, but the truth is i would of been okay without you. when you left i had to learn how to cope with my panic attacks on my own, and it has been really really hard, but im so much stronger now.
We had a crap relationship, and we shouldt of lasted 6 months tbh, but, like, we did and i cant change that.
but thankyou, for the support, and the smiles and the memories, and the chinease etc :L
and you said youd always be there, but thats not true, because so much stuff has gone on at home since, but i didnt bother to call you cus i know you wouldnt be there.
i jsut wanted you to know im not sad anymore, more angry.. i dunno.

some reasons why im happy you left

1) (L)Codie smith. I love this girl more than life itself. she has been such an amazing friend to me, and i probly wouldnt of even met her if you hadnt left.
2) i leant to be strong.
3)im happier

so anyways, i jsut wanted you to know how happy you made me, but also how sad and angry i am too. and because you know me inside out, i think your gonna understand how hard it was for me to write this.

i hope you read this. x