and how do we say our goodbyes? should i laugh or should i cry?

So, its been a little while since i wrote properly, so i guess an update is in order.
So, i have to go to hospital on tuesday for some more tests, which isnt going to be nice, but at least hopefully they can get to the bottom of whats wrong with me. onthe plus side, at least its not as serious as they thought.
Im really tired at the moment though, because i've just been out every night trying to keep my mind off things, but at least on wednesday it will all be over.

Seeing Tiana's heart breaking, just made me remeber how bad it hurts, but it also made me hopefuly, because i don't feel that way anymore, my pain is healing, just as, in time, hers will. Each day is like a stepping stone for me, and im gradually healing and im learning to trust again, part of me is scared, and it's like, im afraid to be with anyone else because i dotn ever want to get hurt again, but im also excited, because falling in love is the most amazing thing and i cant wait to experiance it again :)

wish me luck for tuesday!

x