it all started with the park and ride races

A while back, i met a boy.
and i thought he was amazing.
and i fell for him, despite trying to stop myself.
and me and this boy, we had races in the park and ride carpark,
we sat in mcdonalds and made pictures out of 1p coins,
we had a wonderful christmas together,
and we had the funniest easter ever.
me and this boy, we played with playdough, and we sat on the swings till the sun went down,
and we had so much fun.
and i thought he'd be around forever.
but things changed, and now he's gone/
and yeah ok, i did a bad thing, and maybe if i hadnt done that we would still be together, but, the truth of it is, if we were still together, i wouldnt be half as happy as i am now.
that boy dissapeared somewhere along the way, and we didnt laugh anymore, we didnt talk and we didnt have fun.
so maybe its not such a bad thing that hes gone.
when he left, it hurt a lot, but i picked myself up, and i taught myself to smile again.
and maybe its going to take me a while to be able to forget this boy.
maybe its going to take me a while to be able to forget how he held me, and how he made things okay when everything was so wrong.
but i will forget him eventually.
and i believe that there is someone out there who can make me feel the way that he did, maybe even stronger.
maybe im stupid for thinkin this, or maybe im naive. or just maybe, hope dies last.
either way, im not sad that hes gone.
he took a piece of me with him, and i think i just need to take some time to myself to figure out how to fill this empty space inside of me.
im not hurting, but my heart is broken.
but i'd just like to say thankyou to this boy, for making me the person i am, for making me strong and teaching me how to be ok on my own.
you were the worst thing that ever happened to me, but you changed me, so at least i can take away something good from the past few months.
you broke my heart, but im nto angry anymore, or bitter.
but i just wanted to say that a month ago today, my life changed forever and im never going to be the same again./
im moving on now and im picking up the pieces.
so id like you to leave me alone please.
x