(8)its alright, its ok. im so much better without you..

You asked me to fight for you.
And i did.
I fought for a really long time.
But it got to the point where i realised, there's no point in fighting with thin air.

I think the only reason i got over andy so quick, was because i refused to let myself sit around and get sad about it. whereas with jordan, i used to listen to sad songs and go places that reminded me of him, but with andy, i completley shut him out. nothing reminds me of him anymore. the past three weeks have been the best three weeks of my life. ive done so many new things, and yeah ive been scared but, ive done it. i forced myself to get out there and meet new people and take chances, because ive got nothing to hold me back. And ive planned so much for this summer, so i always have something to look forward too. the next few weeks involve, beach camping, parties, STRIPPERS! oh yeah haha and just meeting a lot of new people :)
ive already met some people who make me smile, but i know im not ready for anythign seriosu yet, but that jsut proves that in the future, theres always gonna be someone. im not gonna be alone forever.
when he first ended it, i thought it was the end of the world, but tbh, a lot more good things came out of it than bad.
1.it made me stronger. i had to do things on my own, andy was lways there for me when i had my little 'funny turns' but i learnt to cope with it an im doing jsut fine.
2. it brought me hellavu lot closer to my friends. sam has been amazing the past few weeks. and as for all my ladsss, we've had so much fun haha. runnin naked around a field has never felt so good ;)
3.it taught me everything i want my future guy to be. everything that he wasnt.
4.it taught me to be honest.

so you see, its not the end of the world. its jsut the begginning. so heres to the summer, and fun, and friendship.
pictures of partying comign soon!

xxx