im jelous, and im angry, and im sad, and im confused, and im scared, and i dont know whats happening to my body, i dont know why im feeling the way i do and it scares me. so bear with me okay. because im going through a lot of changes and im having to adapt and im having to fight like hell, and its fucking hard but im doing it. im starting to realise that sometimes you just have to lose. And i think im okay with that.