I can't do this anymore.
I just can't.
Rhys, i miss you. Sometimes i miss you so much it hurts. I miss everything we were and everything we could of been. You were my best friend and i am always going to want you around, but you just hurt me too much. You pull me back in and then you completley and utterly break my heart all over again. I believed that we could make this work, and be the best of friends again, and i honestly thought you were telling the truth, i thought i had been the one lying to you, but it turns out its been the other way round. All along.
And i will talk to you on msn, but we can't have these deep talks about the past and i cant meet up with you because i'll just get pulled back in.
When i saw you the other day, it was like a weight had finally been lifted from my shoulders, and when i hugged you, i just wanted to cry because it felt so familiar. But if you cant be my friend, then i cant do this. you only see me and speak to me when its convinient for you, and i used to think that i could do that, but now i know that its much, much harder to have it half way than to not have it at all.
Im sorry.
But im falling apart.
And your not here to make it okay.
Your breaking my heart rhysee baby.
And i need it whole so i can give it to andy and love him with everything that i know im capeable of.