Andyy.

Im changing and you just dont realise it.
You taught me how to be honest.
You've shown me what its like to laugh again.
And a month ago, if you'd gone downtown, i wouldt of talked to you for days, i would of been a complete bitch about it and then gone out with my friends and not text you and made you worry,
but you've taught me that its okay to talk about these feelings, that its not stupid because im only human and you cant help being jelous and worrying,
im getting better and better at expresssing myself as each day passes.
Whether you notice it or not.
i can't just change like that, i need time.
the past 2 years with jordan have been so hard.
i've been with someone who just doesnt give a shit about me, so i learnt not to care too.
but since i met you, all of these little changes have been happening and you dont see them or appreciate them, but i do.
im learning to never ever lie,
im learning to express my feelings, the good and the bad,
im learning not to be so argumentitive,
and im learning when to back down.
Im changing, and one of these days your either gonna realise that and appreciate it,
or your never gonna care, and then eventually im just gonna stop caring too.
i just want you to care.
i just want to know that i matter.
i just want someone to give a shit about me.
just dont break my heart.
because after jordan its already pretty shattered.
but i love you with all the little pieces.
i really do baby.
x

I'm still hurting from a love I lost
I'm feeling your frustration
Any minute all the pain will stop
Just hold me close
inside your arms tonight
Don’t be too hard on my emotions
Cause I, need time
My heart is numb has no feeling
So while I’m still healing
Just try and have a little patience
I really wanna start over again
I know you wanna be my salvation
The one that I can always depend
I'll try to be strong, believe me
I'm trying to move on
It's complicated but understand me
Cause I, need time
My heart is numb has no feeling
Cause these scars runs so deep
It’s been hard But I have to believe.

Broken hearts and torn up letters, girl you just cant dnace forever.

Louise! AndyBunney is EVERYTHING tbh says:
*Sighs*he went downtown last night
! says:
Why?
Louise! AndyBunney is EVERYTHING tbh says:
idk. with his 'boys'
! says:
Drinking?
Louise! AndyBunney is EVERYTHING tbh says:
yeah, he was so drunk. didnt get in till 3am :(
! says:
but.. hes not old enough?
Louise! AndyBunney is EVERYTHING tbh says:
i know,but hes tall so he gets in
! says:
aha.. lucky
Louise! AndyBunney is EVERYTHING tbh says:
hmm
! says:
Whats wrong? Explain.
Louise! AndyBunney is EVERYTHING tbh says:
idk ,i,m not jelous. idk how i feel about it. its like,last night there was this party, and i told him i was going and he got so upset and asked me not to, so i didnt, but he went downtown :/
! says:
Talk to him about it.
To me, hes being unfair on you.
Louise! AndyBunney is EVERYTHING tbh says:
i trust him, idk, but now i wanna go out late and get drunk with my friends, just to make him see how it feels
! says:
But thats not the right way to tackle this.
Doing that will just make it worse.
Louise! AndyBunney is EVERYTHING tbh says:
i know. but.. idk. i just wanna get back at him and make him see how it feels :/
! says:
but would he allow you to do that?
Louise! AndyBunney is EVERYTHING tbh says:
he'd have to get the fuck over it and stop being so hypocryitcal.
idk whats wrong with me, after jordan. i just stopepd trusting. i dont believe anyone can eb honest anymore, and im so convinced that every boy is gonna break my heart :/ i just cant go through it again, i like andy too much and its gonna break my heart when it ends.

Judge me, and i'll prove you wrong.
Tell me what to do, and i'l l tell you off.
Say im not worth it, and watch where i end up.
Call me a bitch, and i'll show you one,
Fuck me over, and i'll do it to you twice as bad.

I cried today.
Not because i miss Jordan.
But because i realised im going to be okay without him.

(L) Im still learning.

People say it's hard to move on, unless you have something to move on to.
I say they're right.
I've liked andy since the day i first set eyes on him, and fianlly, im his girl.
Some people may say that it's too soon and im not ready. But i know they are wrong.
Andys living proof that when yo let go of the past something better comes along.
Jordan wasnt going to change and i was in that relationship 2 years too long. i wouldnt say it was wasted time, because i learnt from it and it made me strong. I wouldnt even go as far to say it was the unhappiest 2 years of my life because it wasnt. the last year was horrible because we both changed too much and we just didnt get on anymore and we were too afraid to let go.
i dont think i was in love with him towards the end. i was just scared to leave because i was so comfortable with him. he was so familiar.
but now there's andy.
i;ve lost so much. but hes helping me to see how much i have to gain.
Im still learning tbh