I just want him to love me.
I want him to love me with everything that he is and i want to feel like i mean something.
I want to feel like im a part of him and like he couldn't bear to live without me.
We've been here twice before but i can't give up this time.
It's just all so hard sometimes because he doesn't get it, he doesn't understand that i need attention from him, and affection, and that i need emotions and serious talks and laughter and fun aswell.
I don't mind the fights, i don't even mind how he talks to me and takes his anger out on me sometimes, i can put up with it just as long as i know he loves me.
He says he does, he says he wants to be with me forever but words aren't always enough are they?
Sometimes i need to be shown, i just need to know that, god i don't even know what i need.
But i want him to stop turning his back on me when he talks to his friends, and for him to hold me close when he talks to other girls, and to just be nice, all the time.
I know i have a temper, and i know when we argue i play a big part in it, but the past 4 days i've jsut been restraining myself so much, and i've taken a step back and realised that actually, so does he. It's not all my fault.
After everyhting with Rhys im hurting alot, and i still miss him, and im always scared he will turn out like Rhys.
I don't want that, i want him to be so lovely. I just want to stop feeling like im not fucking good enough.
Just be the boy who will know me inside out, and who will love me.
So to any guys that are reading this, if you love her, show her, don't yell ever, and don't make her cry. The more you love her, the nicer you need to be. Just remeber that.

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