(8)Not giving up, just moving on.

Louise may of met a boy.
and she thinks she likes this boy a little bit.
because he gives her butterflies in her tummy and he makes her smile a lot.
shes scared though.
she wants to give him everything she;s got, and really open up to him, but shes so afrad to get her heart broken.
and she just doesnt know what to do.

So, i cried for about three days straight, and then i begged him to take me back.
and then i got over it.
i dont know why but i get over break ups really quickly.
now im just angry tbh and i dont care if i ever see him again.
relatiosnhips are about faith, and andy never believed i could change.
thats pathetic. so i cant wait till i get another boyfriend and i can just love him with everythign ive got and be perfect for ihm
id never ever cheat again
and you know what
jordan was a waaay better boyfriend than andy
just to clarify :)

im louise
im single
and im gonna be just fineee :)

xxxxxxx

I'd be on my knees right now if i thought it would bring you home.
i literally haven't stopepd crying since saturday.
im fine when im out, but i come home, and im all on my own, and i literally collapse and i cry so hard.
i cry loud, and you can probably hear my heart breaking a few miles down the road.
The worst part is, i know it was my fault.
i just want this to go away.
i cant wait until the part comes when i start to hate him.
im pretty sure its gonna come around soon
beats the being sad right?

xxx

I CHEATED ON ANDY
yeah thats right, i cheated on my baby, and thats why i dont expect anyone to have any sympathy for me. I did a bad thing, and he left and i got what i deserved.
But i know im not missign anything, because love.. true love, thats when you can still love someone through all the times they hurt you. Ture love is when, even though someone completley fucks you over and breaks your heart in two, you can still love them with all the little pieces.
and me and andy obviously didnt have that.
so im nto sad about it. because i know in time im gonna find someone so much better. someone who will love me no matter what.
I know i did a bad thing, and i honestly thought id learnt when i cheated on jordan, and i didnt wanan be that girl.
but i guess i am.
now im jsut gonna get the fuck on with my life.
im gonna be alright :)

xxxx

Alone and scared

When andy left me, i thought that i had nothing.
But thats not true is it?
It's not that i have nothing now, i just dont have andy.
And this, hurts like hell. i have never felt anything so bad, but it will go away.
i know it will.
im just gonna stand up strong and fight like hell.
ive got my friends around me, people are really coming through for me
im gonna be ok :)
i promise

'When your heart breaks, you gotta fight like hell to make sure your still alive, because you are, and that pain that you feel.. thats life. The confusion and fear, thats there to remind you that somewhere out there is somethign better, and that something is worth fighting for'

I cant help it
i hate this relatinship right now