With every beat of my heart

I was still getting over someone else when you came into my life. however, i knew from the first time we met that you were meant for me. now you've been mine for 12 whole months. i don't know how we've made it through this first year, seeing as all we've done is fight. but you believed in us, sometimes more than i did. i often wake up and wish that we could fast forward through uni and start our lives together. but when i really think about it, why rush? you're mine forever, might as well soak up every second. i never wanted to be one of those people who married their high school sweetheart, but things have a funny way of working out. so here's to loving you more with every beat of my heart.

it is so stupidly hard being in love with a boy who honestly does not give a shit

Transcends explanation

The night we met, is and will always remain a bit of a blur in my mind. Dizzy. Drinking. Dancing. Drunk. We met eyes, we’d heard each others names, maybe passed each other by in the street before. You walked me home that night. We were close after this. inseparable. You were there for me to get over how I’d let myself fall for the wrong guy. I didn’t believe in love, but you convinced me that it was something wroth believing in. You made me want to believe in something – in wishing on shooting stars and being just friends. I thought that I just needed you as a friend. Just you. Nothing more. Nothing less. You were someone to share my secrets with and to cuddle up with when I was having trouble sleeping. You were someone who made me smile. I thought this was enough. It wasn’t anywhere near enough. One night, in a post office... We were together that night. In the closest way one can be with someone. I discounted all the other times I’d been with other boys. This was different from anything I’d ever know. You were better than whatever came before. Since then, we have been together. You make me cry just about everyday. You know just how to wind me up and you get annoyed over silly things. We have our flaws and our arguments, but you were the one who taught me how to love. I love your hugs. I love your enchanting smile. I love how cute you look when you’re angry. I love how you pull my jumper when you want to put your arm around me.. I love how you’re shy. I love it when I can feel you smiling when we kiss. I love our snuggles. I love how you make me laugh five minutes after making me cry... I just love you for you. I can’t explain why, it transcends explanation.

One year

Literally a year ago right now you broke my heart.

and i just wanted to say thank you,

its the best thing that ever happened to me x

boxie

They made a t-shirt for you Andy Bunney.

and you might not even care,

but its enough for me,

and now, i can let go.

finally.

i FINALLY got what i deserved... freedom.

for those of you who want to see the tee.. www.iloveboxie.com on the homepage theres a picture of a tee with a heart on the sleeve. click on story :)

I just want you to care.

and im not going to compramise how i feel anymore.

you SHOULD text me more than once when im out for the night.

and you should just show you care more.

if you dont like it then fucking tough

go find a new girlfriend

but im not calling you tonight

and im not texting you anymore because all you do is make me feel like shit and you hate everything about me, i can never do anythng right and im fucking fed up of it

you think im an idiot.

but im not

i know whats coming

and i know youre going to leave

your forgetting ive been through it before

i know what it means when you stop wanting to see me, and you make up silly excuses not to see me

and you dont talk to me anymore

and the sad thing is, i dont know what to do to make it any better

i cant stop you leaving

but maybe its for the best

all i can say is, i hope you find someone who makes you as happy as you deserve to be

and i'll be just fine

even though i can feel my eyes start to cry as im writing this

We've always been told that things will never be easy,
that people you thought you knew so well, change,
that everything will, at some point, be forgotton,
and all good things, someday will come to an end,
But i never thought you'd be the one to make things hard,
or that you'd be the one i look at and think 'who are you?',
or that id wonder where our amazing nights went,
and i never ever thought id ever ever see the end.

HERE'S TO

Here’s to being lied to. To being walked on, used, promised something and fed bullshit. Here’s to seeing the best in him, not believing that he could possibly be as awful as he turned out to be. Here's to trusting over and over and over again because you really wanted to believe that what he did was a mistake. You wanted to believe that he’s changed. He won't change. The way he was and the way he is, is the way that he always will be. If he lies to you, he doesn’t feel that you are good enough to hear the truth. If he plays you, you don’t mean enough for him to be with just you. Breaking a promise means he is okay with disappointing you. He knows what he is doing when he is doing it. He knows it will hurt you and he does it anyway. And as much as he says he does, he doesn’t really care about you. Here's to him saying he’s sorry. With him its just one of those words that he's said so many times and it doesn’t even sound like a word anymore. The only reason he is sorry is because he was caught in his lies. Excuses mean nothing. Nothing he could possibly come up with could fix what he did. Now take this as a lesson learned, let go and move on with your life…